Current location:	Work
Current mood:	optimistic
Entry tags:	bliss, confidence, equations, heat, ms

My Equation of Managing MS
(This afternoon, I’m at work, hiding from the heat--98 degrees, 108 degree heat index. Healthy people are discouraged from spending time outside--no way am I risking things.)

Pragmatism=Determination+Awareness-Confidence-Bliss

It is not sadness that leads me to this conclusion. I am not morose or gloomy. At times, my state, “Like to the lark at break of day arising / From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate” (too many syllables in first line—weird), but, like the lark, my state must return to earth. As “Crash” told “Nuke,” who wanted to just enjoy the “moment,” the moment’s over.

(My roommate recently finished the second draft of a short screenplay--a well-written one, but his first. The next day, he described his emotional state: spiking and plummeting, repeat. Yeah. I offered advice, based on my years of writing experience: get laid, or start working on the next script.)

Keep moving. Not because I’m running away, but because I don’t have the resources to survive in a stopping place. 

Awareness is the stylobate, determination the plinth of the pillar of Pragmatism. Confidence and bliss are the cloying children of Hope, cringing in a corner of Pandora ’s Box. Mixed metaphor aside, the latter do not belong with the former.