Current location:	Work
Current mood:	worried
Current music:	NPR
Entry tags:	bills, moving, ms, sleep disruption

Making sense of things

I track my health, daily. So, I've been wondering why I've struggled with sleep disruption, struggles with focus and motivation, and physical weakness. The first culprit would usually be MS, right? If only . . .

When I wake during the night, I'm experiencing tightening of my neck and back muscles. My first thoughts are about money. "How will I pay the [pick one] bill?", "Will I be evicted?" or, "What can I sell for gas money?"

Tuesday, I awoke at 3:30. Choosing action over apathy, I got dressed and went to the supermarket to buy catfood. I wrote a check, knowing it won't be processed until Friday, pay day. Having acted, I was able to return to sleep. But, geez . . .

Yes, I'm moving to be closer to work, and moving in with a friend in order to share expenses. How will I pay for the move, though? Will I be able to get to Sprink Break? Worry, worry, worry.

Yes, things will begin to improve for me, come May, but I need to get to May.

Thank you for letting me pour forth.